Learning to LOVE MYSELF as I AM 02/24/11
I have always been chunky and a large build right from childhood.
Strong, stocky, Scottish stock, that’s me.
Nothing frail and delicate about me, that’s for sure!
I was always taller and bigger than the other girls at an early age. I had huge feet that made me self conscious. I still remember the humiliation of playing with a neighbour in her paddling pool and the father telling me to get out because I was too big.
Even now I still have weight issues as menopause kicks in.
I’m doing the Weight Watchers thing once again in pursuit of better health. I never feel good when I’m too heavy.
I’m trying to do it differently this time and not subscribe to the guilt/deprivation style of dieting which never works and I just end up feeling like a failure. So many people buy into this method which never works out!
I am going for the lifestyle change where I know I need to reduce portions, eat healthier food and I am not allowed to eat endless amounts of chocolate as much as I love it. It’s my absolute favourite comfort food!
I still eat small portions of my favourite treat but try not to binge the way I did before. Emotional eating to deal with boredom, anger, hurt, and loneliness never really helps, and then I feel guilty on top of the other emotions.
Weight Watchers seems to be working as I have lost 21 pounds and feel much healthier and more energetic. I’ll never be a Twiggy sized woman and I don’t wish to be. I’m a large build and that won’t change.
My mushy tummy has been stretched from pregnancies and will never be totally flat again.
My big butt and hips have served me well over the years. I’m well padded when I fall!
It’s time to stop the self loathing and celebrate my miraculous 51-year old body for being so healthy and putting up with me over the years.
Thanks, body! You’re the best!
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Big Beautiful Wellness SAYS : Congratulations Cathy! Recognizing the Emotional Eating Cycle and striving to recreate it is a massive step to WELLNESS! At our retreat in May 2011 we will be spending an entire workshop on this topic.